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Heh.
Girls see right through that. Trust me, I've done it my whole life. And all my chick friends know when I'm down, even though I'm acting happy.
True dat.
Shapeshifta...
That laying on the planks of wood thing is kinda like what I've done when I'm pretty freaked up. I just end up like resting on the floor...I've found pretty nice solice in my dreams.
Yearning for something greater? Me too, man, but I don't think it happens. There's really nothing to this world. You've probably thought and thought and thought about it, and what you wanna do, but then realized it's pretty much impossible in today's world. There's really nothing 'special' to do anymore...
As for your friend err 'problem' I guess I could say...that is, not really enjoying their company...
Well, that's not you, that's them and their activities...you ever get that "well, I could have just as much "fun" while sitting at home on my computer..." feeling before you go to a party? Well that's probably it, and its probably true.
Girls on your "take opportunity as soon as it arises" list., you say?
I feel the same way/have done the same thing.
Trust me, that's not how it happens.
But you seem the type to not really care, or feel like it won't really give you any more pleasure than you already would get with something else...which is probably true too.
Can't find something you like?
Do something you'd never do.
If you put on this fake smile for all these people you know, and don't have anything you like anymore, just look for some random thing and start doing it. Try playing guitar.