Suicide, whats the big deal?
People talk about finding another purpose, well, what is our first purpose of living?
What if I die? what happends, well some will get said, depresst, etc... so? they'll get over it, or if they won't they die, or commit Suicide. And then?...
So nothing really matters, cuz we don't have a "REAL" purpose to live, have we?
For a few moths ago I, tried to kill myself (I ain't fishing for pittying or attention)
I Had/Have serious problems feeling unusefull, or forgotten, like I dont need to live, like people don't need me to have fun or so...(kinda wicked, I know, can't stop emotions so...fook.) I had/have great pain somethimes when I was alone and I could not bare to do anything. I cried alot and... didn't know where to go. Actually there was a Girl in my head to (aint gonna go in to that, but it is more then, "Oh I can't have her, buhuhuhu.." etc...) ... well could say she was the trigger, (LOL the trigger.. hehe on a Map SC forum

) to it all, the last drip, to set the "Actions" (LOL) in motion. All my "destructive" thoughts about Life and mankind (as my psykologist would call it) got out.
So, why live if you gonna fel pain all the time? My memories will still be there and always come back to attack me.
Why try to feel better? why try to find a purpose to live?...