Alright well here comes my little tale...
To myself i really have no preference with a Social Life... Infact im much rather prefer being alone. Its strange yes but its how I like to live. I prefer the solitude of life, to peace it brings with it. Of course I do socialize, I do have friends, and I do enjoy hanging out with them. But if i had a choice of going out to a party or staying home... watching a movie and smoking a cigarette... Id much rather just stay home. I dont know if anyone out there finds harmony in Solitude and Isolation from the world... but I do.
Maybe I have to little of a Social Life... but its how I am and its how I love to live. In fact having less of a social life has its benefits as well... It shapes you into a stronger more independent person, and having more of a social life will teach you to get along with others. It really depends on how your personality is...
In fact over the years I have realized a lot of things about other people. I find that most people annoy me quite easily due to there weak grasp on life and how much of an ego they have, or just due to the fact they take life for granted and dont realize how they are poisoning society. You tend to realize quite a few things when you have the time to think about it. If anything everyone should take the time to think about what your social life has done for you and how it has affected the way you live your life.
It is true I do leave a double life, I enjoy playing for the crowd, doing the ego trip and taking life for granted, simply because I can and for that small period, its fine.
Yet I am also a careful, sometimes thoughtful, person who doesn't like the idea of being rude, unkind, to funny, self-centres and worries about the problems of the world, and the fears of friends and family. I don't show people at school this, though many close friends know of my two lives, as do my previous girlfriends.
Girlfriends do not equal social life, because real ones are different, and you will, if in the right sort of relationship, feel more open with them and able to just relax, up to a point at least. This is the same with good friends, though on a different a level.
"watching a movie and smoking a cigarette"
Would be the cigeratte, but thats best I do like the occasional one, sometimes something else a little illigal, just makes me feel more relaxed, especially after a heavy weight is on me. Don't ask why, I can't explain, its like when I listen to "Golden Brown" by the Stranglers to help me...Just who I am...
Most people at school see me as a little mad, fun to be around, but can get annoying...those who don't know me call me arrogant, but thats all for laughs and, sadly, I lack any real self and hate who I am most of the time, a product of our time...and age...
People in my school dont really like me i think, maybe thats because i over react when people make fun with me and stuff like that but they should respect that i dont like when people makes fun of me, anyway i often gets into fights and i often win the fights altough i always feels bad about it after i still continue, my few friends know that i am nice just that i take things to seriously some times i try to relax and now i dont get into as many fights as i did about 2 years ago, also im getting a few more real friends.
QUOTE(Coko @ Apr 19 2004, 01:22 PM)
Girlfriends do not equal social life, because real ones are different, and you will, if in the right sort of relationship, feel more open with them and able to just relax, up to a point at least.
I agree completely. This is the main reason why I hate dating in high school. Its so fake, so often...