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I think I may be depressed. Absolutely nothing makes me happy anymore, so I typically find myself drowning myself in anything that makes time fly by. This includes video games.

This is horrible, my grades are slipping up. In fact, I know there's a huge porject I HAVENT EVEN STARTED YET due on Wednesday, and I won' start it. Do I lack the willpower?

Most people could just STOP and DO THEIR HOMEWORK. But not me. I've been telling myself, screaming at myself even, to do my farking project since I got home, but I won't do it.

I'm not just lazy, I'm completely consumed. I tried throwing my power cable on the roof. I still didn't do my homework, I sat there on the floor and eventually started to point out shape in the carpet as you would with clouds.

It's like a mental block, I simply won't do it. If I don't find a solution tonight I'll get a big farking zero on this huge project and fail English. I mean I'm already failing Art and Math....

Am I insane? Do I need serious help? If so, how do I get help? I am being dead serious, something is really farked up with me.

Hmm indeed it may be depression. Perhaps what you should do is talk to your parents or go and see a doctor, which I am sure you will be percribed to take anti-depression pills.

Normally when I hear someone's depressed I say: "Just get over it and get back to work!" But that doesn't help.

I went through something similar when I was about 14. I tried counseling, talking to friends/parents, ect., (everything but drugs/alcohol), and nothing helped. Honestly, I had to hit some sort of rock bottom. You're aware enough to know that this is going to eventually cause you some serious pain, but it hasn't yet. I had to get hurt pretty badly before I started improving myself. And it wasn't an overnight thing. It still took a couple of years. But day by day, the things I could feel good about started to slowly outweigh the bad stuff. It's a combination of both hormones and circumstance, you just sort of have to wait it out, man. The only advice I can give you is not to seek relief from self destructive things such as self mutilation, drugs, alcohol, violence towards others, etc. Those may give you a brief period of relief, but the guilt afterwards makes you feel much worse than you did before. Don't get sucked into that cycle.

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Murder/suicide.
Haha, you sound like me, at that age. Only thing I can really tell you is to ride it out. Nothing I ever tried fixed anything, but I eventually got over it.[/center]

If I were depressed, here's what I'd do

1) Think about girls (this includes masturbating)
2) Listen to Music
3) Hang out with friends
4) Make an SC map

I've had similar feelings recently regarding schoolwork. I still end up doing it but I get distracted really easily because I'd rather be doing anything but work.

What you've got sounds different though - maybe you should seek out a counsellor?

Eating chocolate helps.

Really, it does.

Exercising make you feel better mentally as well.

As for your specific problem, most people's said what could be done.

Take a break on starcraft, start doing your homework after school, make new friends in school, and start hanging out with them, and yes screwed eating chocolate does help ( if you wanna look like a 500 pound man )

Just don't get addicted to it, nor let it be your only 'out'.

I suggest trying to get a girl. I, recently, would be depressed for no reason, but since I got a girlfriend, it's a lot smoother. I have somting to look forward to each day and I've yet to be depressed.

And what if something happens wrong in the relationship?
He'll feel worse. Do you take any medicine at all? I remember when I took Aderol(spelling?) for my ADHD, I changed my eating habbits, and how I lived. I just sat in my room and layed down all day.

A mental block preventing you from doing homework? Creepy. As said before, sounds like depression. Try taking an anti-depressant.. Other then that I don't know what would help.

You don't know what's causing it?

Don't let your mental stability hinge on these damn women. If you only feel good when you're with someone, then it's clear that you aren't in control of your own power. I feel pretty much the same wether I'm with a girl or not, and trust me, it's better that way.

I doubt that any medicine would help, and about talking to parents/teachers, well when i do that, it gets even worse.
I had depression too, when I didn't wanted to do anything, even play computer games, i dunno how could u "cure" it.. It just fades away after some time.

About the project, try finding atleast sth in it interesting, so it wouldnt be completely boring to do.

YeS! I <3 Chocolate!







Yeah, kind of a stupid reason to get with a girl if its just for emotional issues in my opinion. I agree w/ HeRtZ, make some new friends, it's more stable than a girlfriend. If it's impossible for you to make new friends or at least get to know some new people, then that might be what's contributing to your problem; inability to reach out & the same old dullness

I'm not saying you should get with a girl SOLELY for the purpose of releasing your depression, but it does help.

Ya, I agree, a girlfriend/boyfriend might not be the best option because you'll feel worse if they dump you. Go socialize.

The thing is, I have no reason to BE depressed. I have everything I could ever want, save maybe a girlfriend...

And no girl wants the guy sitting in the corner not saying a word and looking like he's stoned...
No, I have never done drugs/ gotten drunk...

ADDITION:
Actually thiniking a little more about it, my father wants me to the best...
At everything. He pressures me like I'm the next Einstein, yet I've been sliding by with C's for some four years now. Last semester was the closet call I ever had. I BARELY passed two classes with D-'s, had three that were solid D's, and two single A's in my Electives... I failed Spanish, but that isn't so bad. I Only need three years of a foreign language and I have 3 spare credits that would otherwise goto off-campus periods...

AND WHAT THE fark AM I DOING??? I HAVE A farkING PROJECT DUE TOMMOROW!!!

Thankfully, I'll be able to redirect all this stress and drown myself in work. I wont be back for some time. Wish me luck.

Good luck. Do the project. Do it if you have to not sleep! (Unless you have an uber important test tomorrow). What are you doing reading this? Turn off your computer if you have to.

I'm serious. Turn it off.

If you want I can send you a virus.

Do your work.

Gah, that was unexpected...
And helpful. BACK TO WORK

I made the mistake of not telling somebody.

And am currently relying on this girl who mentally bails me out of any loss of happiness I get (just by thinking about her). And believe me, I hate the fact that I let that happen to me as well.

Don't let that happen to you. Find something solid that you love Be it a game if it must be, an activity, something you can strive at and you love to do that with. Could be an instrument, could be some skill, whatever. Focus on that, and you'll have something to look forward to when you get up in the morning. Everything won't seem as bad because you'll at least have one thing that you're fighting against the rest of the bullshiz for.

But seriously, tell somebody. People can really help you out. If you really don't wanna tell your parents or teachers or someone like that, maybe a friend you can trust that won't call you a bush for being "emo". I hope you get that project done, and once that's out of the way, you'll be in the clear

Anti-depression pills...I couldn't say much about 'em. Never took any, my friend that does used to like punch holes in the wall and shiz, and now...now he's just in this state of constant floating. Not really caring, not really hating anything either. It sorta disturbs me, but...at least he ain't sad. I guess. If I helped any...>.< I'm glad I could.

Though I doubt I said anything that someone else didn't already.