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Good to see that you're not crazy anymore

Thats why I tend to stay away from most teachers, unless they're a good friend of mine. Once I told a teacher that I was against something which I don't remember for a stupid reason. Got me into the psychiatrist's office, he couldn't determine what was wrong with me. I think that I have ADD or something like that, along with being crazy as you can see in most my writings.

Who are you?

Good to see ya.

Welcome back ~.~

Good to have you back.

Now I am in trouble...

I'd have to do MUCH more to get taken away for "mental recovery" than you did. Like burn a person alive and then eat his/her liver.

Anyway, welcome back.

What made you think suicidal thoughts?

Some teenagers find life depressing for some time, but then they understand life as it is, and get over it.

Ignorance is bliss. Horrible cliche but it does mean a lot in terms of depression.

Great to see thats how society deals with these disorders, ... like kids. Be a good boy and we'll let you out your box. What the freak does that solve? If you really got what you say you have (take if from me .. depression, suicide and anxiety is something I deal with daily) .. Then good behavior isn't going to change crap and I'm sure you know this.

My depression is caused by the way I see a large portion of the people i meet as self-centered materialistic biitches, ready to stab anyone in the back to get ahead. Another large portion of the people I come across in the past (parents included) are crackhead religious zealots who spew their bullcrap endlessly since they've been indoctrinated with it since they were children. Of these people, 98% only purpose in life is follow some meaningless bullcrap,.. let it be god (afterlife).. accumulation of wealth.., their next high.. this gives meaning to all their crapty lives but it really means nothing at all.

The only thing that makes me want to keep on going is the small fraction of people on this Earth which actually try to think independently. Knowledge and innovation are the only things that actually mean anything to me.

Until I change the way I view the world I am never going to feel any better about this .. Well thats not entirely true.. I feel better by creating new things and learning about stuff I am interested in. Problem is that can't get you by in this world, you need to use what you know to survive in a world filled with the rest of these morons.

Filter out as best you can all the bullcrap you see because it's not going to help your mental wellbeing.. I know that is easier said than done.

But chances are you don't even think like me and your depression is caused by many other reasons...

Anyways main point of this post was to state that.. yes the world is freaked and if you can't filter out all the horrible crap in this world than your going to be depressed. Unfortunately filtering it out means being ignorant or turning a blind eye, and usually thats a hard thing to do for our kind.


edit:.. the way SEN has their sensors on is fuucking gay, if your fragile virgin ears can't handle some simple curse words .. cover them up and get off the internet. Yes they often degrade conversation but they can also be beneficial for communicating emotions rather than using god damn annoying emicons.

Why do you consider filtering the crap to be ignorant? Personally, I'd consider it smart. A survival skill, if you will.

Also, people notice other people's bad sides faster than their own.

Edit after synd][cate's edit: you can express your feelings without saying the word "crap" 10 times. English is quite diverse.

Filtering something is is exactly that.. being ignorant to it.. This is why-- To filter something you need to not care about it. So when you are aware of something like peoples greed or their empty pursuits in life, and it makes you sad when you see it... The only way to not be affected by it is embrace it or maybe only accept it. The problem is once you do this you are being ignorant to the reasons why you hated it.

True it is easy to focus your conscious attention on something else to ignore it but it's your subconscious that takes the damage... If frequent enough it causes people to breakdown..

But why do you hate things like greed? Because you don't see them in yourself, or because you understand that you are too weak to change others?

I don't think that we should assume siegecop actually HAD those problems. He said that he TOLD his teacher he was having suicidal thoughts. I doubt this because he illustrated how much the teacher "freaked".

Anyway, what purpose does it serve to be angry at these stupid/lazy/greedy/etc people?

I'm not even going to respond to your first sentence because I'm not even sure what you were trying to say... capitalizing random words and using quotation marks does not communicate your point very well.

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I never said I was angry, I said I was sad. It is the emotion my brain produces when I see these things. As it should in everyone if you see how shallow and self-serving these things are. The problem is people care too much about them self to think about these things. .. Actually wait sorry, that is not a problem.. it is what causes people to be able to live their life in ignorance .. towards selfish goals. /sarcasm

Well using swear words in posts does make one seem angry. Or at least have heightened levels of stress.

Everyone is selfish (including me). A person will do what they believe is most in their best self-interest at their moment, provided they know about the option and it doesn't conflict with their values. Even the so-called "sacrificer" or "giver" is giving up things because he believes it will serve him some purpose (derives pleasure from helping others, expects repayment, will save his life by giving something away, masochist, etc). I don't think that there's anything wrong with that... relationships built on selflessness usually end up in at one of the parties being disappointed eventually.

I believe that's what I said... thanks for repeating it.

Yes, but I'm illustrating that there's no reason for you to be sad about it. Trying to change people is futile because almost every time they'll just keep doing what they do. Or, let me put it this way: it isn't their fault you're sad at all, because they aren't you, thus cannot control your thoughts or emotions.

We need IP to have one of these topics

I never said I was trying to change anyone, I actually said quite the opposite.. I spoke about filtering out the best you can what bothers you and how hard it is actually change that.



You cannot change your thought process without first being ignorant to the facts about why you hated it or why it makes you depressed. The bottom line is you have to change your way of thinking to beat your depression. I certainly have not been able to do that this far, I have only been able to occupy my time doing other things that prevent me from seeing what I get depressed about. Avoidance. It is not a solution but it method of coping.

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I was talking about how I see everyone as self-centered and you immediately think I want to change everyone because of it. If I wanted to change everyone wouldn't I be self-centered myself, since I want to change everyone to my way of thinking. You see I don't want anyone to try and change me or for them to impose their views on me even though they have been trying to do that since I was born (see: insane christian parents). Treat other people the same way as you would want to be treated yourself.

This is where the sadness/depression comes from, I know nobody is going to change and I know all their pursuits are self-loathing. There is nothing you can do besides changing yourself and trust me it is hard. You have to be a baastard to survive and be happy in this world, that is what the world taught me.

To tell you the the truth I am slowly becoming like that.. I'll be a baastard and do shiit that benefits me and only me.. just know I wasn't always like that.

Very well then, modify my one sentence and pretend I said the rest of it.


I don't consider myself a "baastard", and I'd say I'm very happy and successful in this world. And I'd gamble to say you always were "like that" but never examined your behavior and thoughts to realize it.

Is 20+ still teenagerish? Because if not, IP has no excuse for thinking suicidal thoughts or saying that he's thinking suicidal thoughts.